Illness and dying have always been very significant topics through out the course of my life. Ever since I was young the thought of dying has always been a scary thought for me. The thought that there will be a point where you will die and not experience life is a scary thing to imagine. But as for the thought of getting sick it is not a scary. When I was young I took getting sick as just another opportunity to get off of school. Now on the other hand I feel that I cant afford to get sick during the week or else I will miss something important. The reason that I am not afraid of getting an illness is because I just don't think I am going to get one. But there I am just talking about the flu or a cold, on the other hand i am very afraid of getting a life threatening illness.
Some experience that I have had with death and illness is that about a year and a half ago my fathers best friend Sherman Darby passed away from cancer. Sherman was possibly the greatest person that I have ever met in my entire life. He was kind and would put everyone before himself no matter what. When someone like that dies of a disease like cancer it makes it so much worse because he did not deserve to get such a horrible disease. Another experience I have had is that my aunt passed away from leukemia when I was around 11. This again is an example of someone who got taken by such a horrible disease for no reason. I know that some people think that everything happens for a reason, but in these cases I feel that there was no reason for this to happen. These weren't bad people who deserved anything like this in there lives, so then why did they have this happen to them?
The way that my family approaches these topics are pretty similar to mine. They figure that death is something that is going to happen to everyone at some time. Although like me they don't like the thought that one day they will die they have come to terms with the fact that it will happen. I feel that the thought of my family dying scares me more then the thought of me dying. I feel that if my family dies then I wont really have anyone to be close to. I am sure my family feels the same way about this topic when it comes to losing me or another family member. I feel that the loss of a family member has much more of an impact on your life then the loss of a friend. They both hurt but one of this is more personal since those are the people that matter to you most in life.
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